I wish I could’ve been there

I wish I could’ve stopped it 

I wish you would’ve called me, because we are now, not a pair

I wish I could have stopped it

in a sense I feel broken

in a sense I don’t know what or how to feel anymore

in a sense I still feel like you can be awoken

in a sense I still feel ashamed 

in a sense I feel there’s nothing more I can gain

however in a sense, I know that in you, there’s nothing left to restore

in this dark tract, I will forever feel defeat

in this dark tract, you lie here so lifeless 

in this dark tract, still young and beautiful, I wish I wouldn’t have left you alone

in this dark tract, looking at you only adds more distress

in this dark tract, I heavily think to myself all of our future plans are now forever postponed 

I guess this is the end of your suffering 

I guess I can be content about that 

but while you are not here, my life will continue buffering 

but at the very most, I know you’re no longer suffering

By Ja’Karra Nelson